Without a doubt, what prevents my start from starting (and I bet I’m not alone) is Fear of Failure. Fear of Failure boldly barges into my life [my heart, my mind, my inner being] and bullies me into submitting to it’s will while lulling me with its lies. When Fear of Failure comes for a visit, I can safely hide inside my little world, my little family, working hard and keeping busy with meal making, laundry washing, house cleaning, homework helping, kid snuggling, husband adoring, and spending my little pieces of “free time” watching other people live their lives on Facebook, drinking coffee and convincing myself that I’m just too busy. Because, let’s face it, I AM busy. I can safely NOT fail if I never even try. Fear of Failure tends to show up a lot in my life; as an artist, at CrossFit, even at parenting my children. And it tells me the same thing each time: I can just stop showing up. . . I can just not.
As an artist, I’ve been told to only show my best work, but in #The100DayProject I’m forced to show my failures as well. This has challenged me to consider that showing my failures also reveals my humanity. I’m not perfect, not everything I do “turns out”. More than once I have been inspired to create something I thought would be amazing that instead fell flat. But if I fail when I fail in this project, I’m going to show it and show up again the next day. No skipping the day’s posting, hiding in my room and “taking a break” from my work for my ego to recover. I will push the door closed against Fear of Failure, armed with my perseverance, persistence, and memory. I will fail sometimes but I know I will succeed again.
That being said, here’s this week’s progress, including the completed “St. Louis Cathedral“:
Day 57
Day 58
Day 59
Day 60
Day 61
Day 62: COMPLETE!
Day 63: Scripture Sunday